So for the first time in my 25 years I told someone that I liked them. I told him because it had been a number of years and I needed to express it. I realized that I needed to say how I felt because I couldn't go another six years with a not so secret crush on him. The reality of the situation is that I do kind of wish I would have kept it a secret or at least an unspoken truth. The truth is the truth hurts. Rejection hurts. The thing is he hasn't exactly rejected me which is far worse. His actions tell me that he isn't interested but his words say nothing. Therefore I am left to my own list of reasons why he isn't interested. It would be far more humane for him to just tell me the truth. Just tell me he's not interested. He doesn't even really need to give me reasons, just an answer would be nice.
I have learned from this experience that I never want to admit my true feelings to anyone ever again.
